This Site

I seem to spend less time on my website than ever. If I post something it's usually something I duplicate on Facebook, but often it just goes straight to FB. Is FB the most effective model to follow? I don't know. I can only say that as a writer I work gently, often comparatively slowly, and I try to write from place of peace. When I am in this space the writing tells me what it needs me to do. I can't do that if I'm constantly fishing around to "keep my site current" and add things I think will amuse or divert people. This second place is not a place of peace. For me it's full of ego and striving of the most basic sort. What it is for others I don't know, all I can say is that for me it's not authentic. I was watching a street magician a while ago, here in Cambridge. He had his little table and a top hat and he did some fairly standard card tricks. He was pretty good - he even produced a white rabbit from that hat, much to my delight - but it all seemed a bit rehearsed and conventional. Then he said he'd do one last trick. I was a bit complicated and involved cards being wrapped in handkerchiefs and so on. Then as we were starting to get a tad restless he reached forward, his sleeve rolled back to show he had nothing concealed there, and in front of the nose of the woman who had chosen the card, he spread his fingers -- and the card popped into view. I swear, we all gasped. I'd never seen anything like that before, and I've never forgotten it. That "trick" - closer to a miracle - was surely one that came from the heart. It was authentic and beautiful and utterly moving. I still feel shivers thinking about it now. When I write that is what I hope will happen.